3 pounds were lost off of this almost fluffy body, I ate what I wanted, I drank what I wanted and I sat down. I didnt even try, it just came off now before you get all "damnit i hate you" on me, ive been sick since sunday, its now saturday and am still having a bit of tummy troubles, not tummy virus troubles either, i dont know WHATS going on.. but at the moment I dont care, the scale says im lighter, so lighter I shall be, and not ask questions.


I finally got to get out of the house, ive been stuck in here, snowed in, then iced in, then sick stuck in, for 3 weeks. thats right people... THREE WEEKS!!! once with the baby we took a trip to babies r us, so i could snag a few things for her and my nephew, because he is very spoiled and i can not help myself. The second time i snuck out of here, was for dinner with a friend, I havent been out with a friend in nearly 4 months so it was WONDERFUL! i didnt care how long the wait was for a table, i didnt care that there was traffic, I WAS ALONE! IN THE CAR! MUSIC BLASTING SINGING AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS! and didnt run the risk of wakeing the baby. it was BEAUTIFUL. I of course asked my husband how the baby was, he inturn told me to stop worrying... easy for him that kids with me 24/7 so of course im going to wonder, and im going to ask, and your going to tell me because ill shank ANYONE if something happens to her, i work hard at not killing this child (and i mean this in, shes clean, fed, ive NEVER dropped her, i have hit her head, i may or may not have accidentaly chocked her while trying to button a shirt that buttoned in the back..)(dont give me that.... you know youve done it!!) so when i am not with her, i better not come home to a hair misplaced on her head, or im gonna go all mama bear on you.

Kip ( I have told my husbands name??? well its Kip.. just kip) and I talked about together, how dieting for me, is pointless, becuase eventually i have to get off the diet, and then what? I am not going to push to many things on myself at one time, with the baby its not easy, I take time out of the day, every day for myself, but sometimes thats only 5 minutes, sometimes its more. so working out, isnt always an option for me, but i do housework, im up and down with the baby, so when i get the chance i do it, but if i didnt have a moment, im not allowed to beat myself up over it. eating... Im going foodshopping this week, we had to use up the food already here, and ive made the best choices i could, with whats available at the house, and ive done fairly well. So sunday is foodshopping, and the new foods will be worked in, kip is willing to eat what i eat (for the most part) but he is a very picky eater, so it wont always be easy. we shall see.

 
I can be queen of this, blame it on my ADHD, blame it on I am a new mom, blame it on... the rain ;) PCOS plays a huge part in my weight, getting a late diagnosis plays a bigger part, but lately? its just laziness. I know what I am supposed to do to get this chub off of me, I am aware that I need to cut back on the yummy goodness that is carbs, I know I need to increase my veggie and fruit intake, and eat lean meats, that arent breaded and cooked in yummy fat. I know I cant eat an entire pacakge of double stuff oreos... will power left me at birth.

So I have this thing.. i sometimes call the parasite, at times the tyrant.. but usually its peanut butter, PB for short (what? shes mushy and sticky like peanut butter), this is my baby she is 4 months old, and cute as pie and no she isnt asian, not even a little. I need to be healthy for her, or atleast as healthy as i can be. i owe it to her cute lil butt! even if she tried to kill me. (and she sooooo did). But how?  Ive been lazy with my health for 27 years, thats where this happy spot of the internet that i am now calling home, comes in... this will be my "get your ass movin" kick in the hiney i need.

As of today I am 182lbs (hangs head) I am 5'2" (i dont look my weight.. i SWEAR i dont... only plus side... aside from my ass)... goal? by summer.. be 20 lbs lighter, but next january, be 40 pounds lighter... sounds easy enough right? well not when you have PCOS and are a diabetic, and have a 4month old who keeps you from doing things like prepareing food, that isnt pizza rolls...But I will do it, I will have slip ups, it wont be easy.. but damnit...I WILL BE SKINNY!

So look out world.. this chicks goin on a skinny!


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