After my pregnancy with the miss PB, and all her trying to kill me business(which if you dont know, severe hyperemsis, and placenta previa, ect.), i was really hoping that MAYBE my body would let me have this one...
I have never been one of the healthy folk out there... Ive also never had a common cold. I get things like bronchitus, sinusitus, upper resp. infections. When younger, I had strep a few times, tonsilitus more times than i could count (i still have my tonsils by the way), i had a stomach virus, atleast twice a year, all of the above mentioned, ear infections... you name it, ive had it... BUT the common cold, it got to the point where i could diagnos myself, my family thought this was funny, i thought it was sad lol. I also have asthma, im allergic to everything BUT food, I even have cold uticara, which is classified as a skin disorder, but really its an allergy to the cold (note to self: never move to alaska). While pregnant with PB i was fairly healthy on the sick front, had one sinus infection that lasted forever, but that was it, since having her, I havent been sick once...
When i found out i was pregnant again, i felt my world come crashing down on me, i didnt want it, i was miserable i cried almost always, i was pissed off at myself for allowing it happen, i felt guilt for everyone, mostly for my daughter. I wanted it to go away... and i felt like the worst person in the world for wishing that, i beat myself up over it. i am starting to come around.. but... the hyperemsis is back, im on zofran it helps with the nausea and vomitting, although not all the time, but enough. the past 7 days i was on bed rest... (hi... i have a 6 month old, and my husband has to work) so i stayed with my parents a few days, and they helped a lot, my friend Harlee helped me out when she could, and i didnt the best i could... im on bed rest, because my uteran scar was over stretching... i was in an insane ammount of pain for about a week before i started to complain about it, and i still didnt make an appointment to go to see my OB for atleast another 3-4 days... its how i roll. finally i go in, they check me out, do an ultra sound, draw some blood.... ultra sound shows my scar.... the scar that is a little to stretched for my dr's liking, its going to stretch naturally, duh... but apparently i was doing to much, and helping it along... hello... if i didnt stop... i could totally off myself, and the baby.. or just the baby... and it dawned on me... i can NOT let anything happen to this baby.. if my body rejected it on its own, i would have been a little sad, ill admit that... but if something happend because of something i could control... i couldnt handle that... im getting used to the idea of having 2... 2 very close in age...
im also vitamin d deficent.. no bigs right? OH WRONG! LOL i googled... yeah i know.. DONT GOOGLE! but the nurse who called me, made it VERY clear that i HAD to take a supplement.... "DONT NOT TAKE IT, ITS IMPORTANT" she stressed more than once, but wouldnt exactly explain why, which is silly since my mother is on the interwebs, so is the rest of the world... i know how to navigate google.. bad things people.. BAD THINGS!
so i feel like a total loser, i cant take care of my baby on my own, im not supposed to stand longer than 5 minutes at time (do you know how much of a mess my casa is???) and im not supposed to lift anything heavier than 5 lbs, that eliminates everything living thing in my house... even my tiny cat, who is about 7lbs... but what i can lift... a cookie....and a burger... i guess not all is lost.
I have never been one of the healthy folk out there... Ive also never had a common cold. I get things like bronchitus, sinusitus, upper resp. infections. When younger, I had strep a few times, tonsilitus more times than i could count (i still have my tonsils by the way), i had a stomach virus, atleast twice a year, all of the above mentioned, ear infections... you name it, ive had it... BUT the common cold, it got to the point where i could diagnos myself, my family thought this was funny, i thought it was sad lol. I also have asthma, im allergic to everything BUT food, I even have cold uticara, which is classified as a skin disorder, but really its an allergy to the cold (note to self: never move to alaska). While pregnant with PB i was fairly healthy on the sick front, had one sinus infection that lasted forever, but that was it, since having her, I havent been sick once...
When i found out i was pregnant again, i felt my world come crashing down on me, i didnt want it, i was miserable i cried almost always, i was pissed off at myself for allowing it happen, i felt guilt for everyone, mostly for my daughter. I wanted it to go away... and i felt like the worst person in the world for wishing that, i beat myself up over it. i am starting to come around.. but... the hyperemsis is back, im on zofran it helps with the nausea and vomitting, although not all the time, but enough. the past 7 days i was on bed rest... (hi... i have a 6 month old, and my husband has to work) so i stayed with my parents a few days, and they helped a lot, my friend Harlee helped me out when she could, and i didnt the best i could... im on bed rest, because my uteran scar was over stretching... i was in an insane ammount of pain for about a week before i started to complain about it, and i still didnt make an appointment to go to see my OB for atleast another 3-4 days... its how i roll. finally i go in, they check me out, do an ultra sound, draw some blood.... ultra sound shows my scar.... the scar that is a little to stretched for my dr's liking, its going to stretch naturally, duh... but apparently i was doing to much, and helping it along... hello... if i didnt stop... i could totally off myself, and the baby.. or just the baby... and it dawned on me... i can NOT let anything happen to this baby.. if my body rejected it on its own, i would have been a little sad, ill admit that... but if something happend because of something i could control... i couldnt handle that... im getting used to the idea of having 2... 2 very close in age...
im also vitamin d deficent.. no bigs right? OH WRONG! LOL i googled... yeah i know.. DONT GOOGLE! but the nurse who called me, made it VERY clear that i HAD to take a supplement.... "DONT NOT TAKE IT, ITS IMPORTANT" she stressed more than once, but wouldnt exactly explain why, which is silly since my mother is on the interwebs, so is the rest of the world... i know how to navigate google.. bad things people.. BAD THINGS!
so i feel like a total loser, i cant take care of my baby on my own, im not supposed to stand longer than 5 minutes at time (do you know how much of a mess my casa is???) and im not supposed to lift anything heavier than 5 lbs, that eliminates everything living thing in my house... even my tiny cat, who is about 7lbs... but what i can lift... a cookie....and a burger... i guess not all is lost.
